Rejection

I feel it, all around, from nearly everyone.

I just want to spend time with my friends.

This is hard. My life is hard. And I just want to give up.

I feel like everyone is rejecting me, though, most likely, they aren't doing it purposefully. It hurts.

This root is deep. Going back years, years of torment.

I don't understand.

I always try to remember a line from a song... "There's a whisper in my ear, the voice of loneliness and fear, and I say 'Devil, disapper!'"

But it's hard to quiet this voice; especially, when it sounds like the truth.

Mystery Google

www.mysterygoogle.com

Mystery Google challenged me:

today, i challenge you to tell the truth, tell the person you like you like them, and go for something you normally wouldn\'t. type accept into mystery google if you\'ll do the mission, thanks and goodluck:]

We'll see if I accept this challenge.


Edit:
I did another search, and got the same challenge again.

Fuck.

I am feeling dejected, rejected, used, and forgotten.

Fuck life.

Convo of the week, II

I think I've had a few good ones this week so far, but I think this one will top them all.

I know she won't mind me using her name. Anna is telling me about some guy she used to talk to in high school and how gorgeous he was and what not. I asked her to show me his picture so I could gauge his hotness.

Me: (4:16:57 PM): show me
Anna(4:17:07 PM): I don't have a single picture of him!
Anna(4:17:11 PM): Besides the nude ones
Anna(4:17:13 PM): Hahaha
Me:(4:17:20 PM): haha
Me:(4:17:23 PM): block out the bottom
Me:(4:17:25 PM): or
Me:(4:17:26 PM): you know
Me: (4:17:27 PM): crop
Anna(4:17:32 PM): lololol
Anna(4:17:45 PM): He doesn't look very good in the pictures
Anna(4:17:58 PM): It's funny because there's like three or four before the schlong
Anna(4:18:12 PM): And he's fully clothed
Anna(4:18:14 PM): Then in his boxers
Anna(4:18:17 PM): Then bam
Me: (4:18:16 PM): haha
Anna(4:18:17 PM): PENIS
Me: (4:18:18 PM): HAHA
Me: (4:18:19 PM): wow
Me:(4:18:22 PM): molested
Me:(4:18:26 PM): visually molested
Anna(4:18:29 PM): Oh baby, I do not mind
Anna(4:18:31 PM): D:
Me: (4:20:01 PM): D:

Sylvia is pretty awesome...

Sylvia

so dod you eat anywhere yummy?

Adriana

not really

haha

jimmy john's!!! <3

i had sushi with adrian tonight

but it was mediocre

but kinda awesome 'cuz they had it on a sushi train!

Sylvia

dude i went to the best sandwich shop today!

Adriana

where??

Sylvia

its off of 802. they put all of these super yummy vegetables and the sandwich was all warm and toasty :)

plus they have cookies too!!!

Adriana

off of 802?

what is it called?

Sylvia

maybe you haven't heard of it

subway?

HAHAHAHAHA

Adriana

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Conversation of the week.

I think I should start posting conversations of the week. I'll keep it anonymous just because I don't know what she'd say if I posted her name.

First one.

Me:

they were making jokes about balls

getting stuck in something or idk what

it was just awkward

Anonymous:

ewww

balls are so nasty

Me:

haha

BOLLOCKS!

Anonymous:

i'm glad i dont have any :D

Me:

me too :D

i have mammary glands

and they're prettier to look at that than wrinkly, hairy balls.

Anonymous:

i have mammary glands too

but they're little D:

hahahahahaha

Me:

HAHAHA

I guess still better than wrinkly, hairy balls.

Anonymous:

yes, def still prettier ;)

Hello

What is it that I want in you? Despite physical appearances, which won't matter much in a few decades anyway, what is it that I want in you?

I want you to love music. I want you to love films, especially comedy films, zombie films, zombie comedy films, and campy films.
I want you to be funny and witty. I want you to make me laugh.
I want you to be intelligent and clever. You don't have to be a scientist.
I want you to love to read, and read silly books with me, like Roald Dahl books.
I want to be able to have great conversations with you about anything and everything, great or small, significant or not.
I want you to love board games and silly fun. I want you to not need booze to have a good time.
I want you to kiss me on the cheek and on the forehead when we're together. To kiss my hand, and play with my fingers.
I want you to love God and to do the things He does, listen to what He says, and speak what He says.

When we meet, I'll know you were worth waiting for these many years. And I'll thank God that there was no one else in my life to take anything from you. I love you already, and I don't know you.